so yeah the fighting was awesome for me
i love fighting with Reggie at my side
the Katana Brothers lol
lots of fun  lots of good fights

the ball was fun too
even though i dont love dancing
i do enjoy it
and
i had a great time dancing the few i did
the highlight of the ball
I Danced with a shiny hat!!!!!!!!
i had the honor of dancing with her excellency of Illiton
it made my night,she cured my grumpyness

at the end of it all tired
very drained and exhausted thats about it
it was Fun
i was cranky at times
and for those who were at the brunt of it i am sorry
but i am over that and as a whole
it was my Fav C/B thus far

stayed at the vargas compound last night
watched movies all night lol
it ended with one very lame
zombie film
(the worst film ever)
but we had fun
laughing at it
was good

still have the itching ivy on me 
got meds for it but ahh still
so very itchy

today i will go riding with rowan
it will be nice
every sunday is

the here and now sitting on there
sofa listening to music Vargas is sleeping like a baby
*(ya know i never understood that expression)
*(from my exp babies dont sleep well at all very restless no REM sleep.)
but anyway i might go wake him up jump on him or something lol
that would be my end
i think

and i dont want to die
so i guess...............
i wont do it


oh what the hell bye guys

 so tired..........
need sleep..........................
poison ivy is not your friend................
ahhh...
(lol)


goodnight

 i hate girls
not all 
just a few rather

i wanted to scream last night
i hate being in a relationship
where the other person dosen't 
express how they feel
they just make you guess
then when you try to help
by stating how you feel
they get mad

"and i don't really feel like talking right now"
(huh then why are you still texting me)
thanks one there for making me feel like i matter
then when i try to express
that that made me upset
you just say whatever bye
thats so fucking rude.
(sigh)
i'm done
expending energy on people
who just don't care
and or people who spread slander
people who just don't get it


last nights fun.
and now work
then i don't know
i get off at five
so i'l be back

 

ah  i miss ben
but he's busy for now
and a while
i think its going
 to be a long road for him
and that makes me sad 
i know its what he wants
but i just know life will be hard for him

ahh life......  (sigh)

i washed dishes at work
yuck
now shower time



i feel better
yesterday really made me feel better
some closer with poeple and
just good to see peopl that care

tomorrow another day

 

so i had a long talk 
with my knight tonight
so much drama
going on
i am just stressed out 
i want to make my family proud
vargas tells me they are
its just me getting disappointed
letting me get the best of me

this song is so good side note 
(do you feel-by the rocket summer)

so i am better now part of the way there
just moving along
still a lot on my mind

other people make me mad
why do people spread rumors 
and then deny it
do you think i am stupid
ahhhh...

so i found out
 i do have my great sword authorization 
so now i have to start marshaling
fun fun

wow my tummy hurts
so i worked
for 3hrs tonight
lol
making the big bucks now
...................
(lol)
my dad opened his gifts from us
he liked my card a lot
i must be damn good 
at picking out sappy b-day cards
(lol)
also bought my knight a gift
he will like it i think
but its not starwars stuff so maybe not
(lol)
(insert short paragraph here)
(insert laughter here) 
(lol)
had a really great weekend 
that i have yet to talk about
saw some great friends
did some fighting
went for my sunday ride with rowan
it was good
the perfect end
to a semi- ok week

so today will be great
so much to do
just very tired
alot bugging me alot on my mind
just letting me get to me thats all
but thankfully i have great people at my side
right now 
i am just thankfull 
for the people i have in my life 

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: indifferent
Current Music: Sufjan Stevens